Some days i wish death could find its way in and take me out. As everyday holds a struggle and some days i forget to smile. How much pain can a women bear and how much should she put up with. There are no answers and its an never ending journey. I want to keep my head above water at least i try to but it keeps getting harder and harder. I want to give up. But if i do its not going to be pretty. When i was young i had hope now as i turn 30. I don't have anything to look for, only my son. Yeah he is the one who keeps me going. I want to stay alive and dream once more. I am so broken and frustrated to even try. What can i do? Is there any hope for me? I feel that death sounds so much easier than that. Isn't it? Have you ever been in this state not many of us recognize that but a few can get me. Anyways i hope my god would come through for me.